Things are a little interesting.

I had hardly any notice or warning, and I kind of saw it coming, but thats not the point.
You've hardly listened to me, and so I don't see why you're thanking me for all this, this advice and guidance I've given you, if you're just going to throw it away.
Erasing something isn't eliminating the problem. It's running from it...
I guess running is the only thing you're willing to do now.

On another note, I really miss you D:
Halloween is cool, except its taking you away from me this weekend :/
And I mean, I don't even get to see you in costume. *eyeroll* aha
I'm kidding :]
I hope you have fun x

The funeral was lovely. Very nice send off.

Everything is... difficult.
Not telling someone... Is that the same as lying?

The tension here, is unimaginable.
I feel that same hollowness again... It scares me.
Sometimes I think about things I shouldn't.
And you can't imagine how hard it is to stay in control sometimes.

This week:
I have homework due tomorrow.
I have perth monday night, and tuesday.
I have graduation certificates and an afterparty on saturday.
A party i'll likely be sober at the way things are going...
New week, hopefully a better start.
Oh yeah i have band on thursday, performing two songs and hopefully a certain someone wont try to show up everyone else, cause when she does it sounds terrible :S LOL

I should probably start my english,
But its only a 200 word thing, i should nail it tonight...
I had a dream last night.
A dream about a young man, in his early twenties, who had silver hair and purple eyes.
I don't know what that means,
But its one of the most normal dreams i've had in ages.

I hate the past tense. I hate it so much. I Really Do....

Our Respects

To Miss Beverly Alves who taught Science and Maths at my school. What a lovely lady, rest peacefully now x

Please never ever scare me like that again..

Its funny how tears, however horrible, can make you realize how much you love something.
When you're scared, and you can't do anything about it, you fear for losing it.
That something which is pretty much the most important thing in your life, is what you cry over.

There's a reason I asked you.

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Ok so i've been asked to draw up a friend's tattoo for his son and ive found a really cool style

I wonder if he'll like any of them yet ;o

Anyways, yeah yesterday was alright. Had a new teacher whose mum used to teach us. Her mum was a straight out nightmare D: Like seriously, but at least her daughter's nice (:

There's a rumour going around that one of our sick teachers doesn't have long :/

Other than that though, things are pretty fine for the moment i guess.

I woke up at six in the morning bloody hell...
Cause i went to bed last night early, and set an alarm to wake up later in the night so i could talk to my absolutely wonderful princess :3
Except the power shorted out and my alarm reset itself ):
So i'm absolutely kicked about that. I guess theres one positive in that i got 10 hours sleep...

I miss youu ):
I love you so much xo
Hope you're alright -kisses. :3

I'm still a bit tired and I don't know why. I've just had a shower, and i should be wide awake, but oh well.

I'm so worried sick about you...Literally.

I wish I could do more to help out >.<

Guess i'll sign out.

-Dean

You have to make someone to fall in love, to change their life. Just make sure its unrequited else your life goes too

And none of the bees ever would sting me. They hovered around, curious but mellow. I never did anything to them. Why should they do so to me?

So its late October already. Halloween is around the corner, so is Christmas and the end of the year.
I've sent off applications to a couple universities, hopefully i'll be doing an arts degree with a psychology switchover. We'll see.

Dad's really on edge lately, not sure why.. oh yeah, now mum too >.<

So my little man's sick ): He's throwing up everywhere the poor little guy ;/
I had take care of him and help out bop, gosh its terrible seeing a little kid sick D;
We found a ladybug though and he had fun watching that climb over our arms xD
Found another in my room just now ;o

Theres this pretty little cat under my room at the moment, don't think she's feral, but shes been fighting our cats. Haven't seen her around, might be the new neighbor's but she seems lost ;o
Like 10 minutes ago she started howling with a feral cat which was odd. LOL
And someone showed up asking me to play slim dusty backing tracks so they can sing kareoke -.- yay. can you hear the sarcasm dripping from my voice?

I've realized a few things the last couple of days.
Some regrets, (yeah yeah dont look at me like that, i know its hypocritical but oh well)
But I've more than made up for that,
I've finally stopped holding on to it, and let someone else in on the secret i held so tightly.
It feels good to be unburdened every once in a while :)

Im pretty tired tbh, but oh well. Ill sleep some soon, as soon as we have dinner. :]
Wednesday tomorrow. Piano lessons down at the church apparently, we'll see if im game enough to keep paying this girl 15 bucks a week >.<

:3

Just a super quick drawing that turned from a young bub to a kinda toddlerish boy? :]
^_^

Ok so today was pretty awesome. It was "Wear it Purple" Day for the awareness and prevention of gay teen abuse and suicide. I spent like an hour the night before chalking up purple converse with rainbows and this morning we were drawing rainbow bands or everybody's arms. It was a fun day, good to see smile and colour in peoples' faces :)

Although my mood was ruined a bit when I found out what we were doing at the end of the year concert.
Godly songs. How freaking conservatory christian is my town? They push enough religion on you already and now they wanna freaking make it compulsory for the highschool students to join in god and jesus saviour songs?
If we dont we get a call home, i'd lose my badge more than likely.
I had to stop myself from standing up and protesting:
"Hang on a second. I'm fucking athiest now, i don't believe in this crap so stop making me do it. This is a free country this is! A public

Drunken and Amused

So tonight, after speedway, mum has her friend over, plus out cousin and her boyfriend and two random guys.
They're all smashed at my kitchen table and are freakin hilarious tbh.
The random guy is a bit creepy though, looking at me weird.. o.o
Anyways, pretty amusing to watch and entertain. Looks like i wont be bored in the least tonight.
I'll let you guys know if i survive with my next post :)

-Dean.

Fresh Air and Strange Beginnings...

Well, as i feel as if i've reached a slightly different stage of life all is good.
I'm back from the Big Smoke finally and I'm very much appreciating the laid-back air of country life again.
So i have a mystery cut. Its on my waist and starts just where the top of my jeans sit, and goes down an inch and a half, give or take. It's a huge pain tbh,
a) Because Curiosity Kills Me. (Yes...  YOU should know that perfectly well.)
b) Stings a bit while wearing pants. LOL

Anyways, I'm pretty sure i escaped the city without getting sick which is a big achievement, and I enjoyed spending some Dean time down at the shops so that was good also. (:
Mum's dental surgery just about kills her so kiddies, remember to brush your teeth D:

Two months, and better than ever (; x

-Dean

Neo-Dead

I think we just reached a new high.

Do you know what it feels like to be utterly sound, and utterly happy?
Just extremely content with what you have, even if you want more...
I love you so freaking much. (; x

-Dean

Absence.

Funny how when one is consumed by the dull, in an incomplete unnerved state, strange compellings can consume the person you were, and bury him for a while, replaced by an eerie shadow. A shadow of which is darker, and different. Clinging.

haha xD
Mmm, so, I'm in Perth at the moment. Kind of bored but enjoying the different air.
It wont be long till i'm sick of it and yearning for country life LOL
So... i forgot about the phrase: "Absense makes the heart grow fonder."
Its something we should all take into consideration, whether with daily life or relationships.
Its the make or break. Really.
Anyways, I'll sign off with a good note.
Its windy today ;D

-Dean

To write love on his arms.

The heavy patter patter of rain on the road was almost deafening and the cold was creeping in with the wind.
I could feel the warmth of her body though, it radiated from her like the joy she held in her smile.
I held her tightly and she rested her head back on my shoulders, watching the falling water while the heavy, homely aromas engulfed my nostrils, from the cafe. It made my stomach turn again...
I was hungry. Not just hungry... I mean, real hunger. It was the old permanent feeling though. I was used to it now.
Her hair was cropped short, strewn with a colorful series of faded ribbons, which matched her dull colored clothing. We'd be moving again, I could feel it. I loved the wild energy that ran through her blood. It was exhilarating. Soon, the rain slowed, and she made for the road. We did need to get home after all...
I grabbed her arm before she could skip off and pulled her back to me again. I took the pen out of my pocket and showed her my arm as I wrote her name on it.

Gemma Eloise Daniels


I murmured her name to myself as I wrote it. She laughed lightly and touched the dark ink on my tanned skin.
"What's this?" She asked, intrigued, her smile radiant again.
"I have no money...
I have no car...
I have no house...
I'm not very sharp...
I've got nothing to give,
I've got nothing to offer.
Please, if you'll take me,
I'll give you my heart." I said the words slowly... broken.
I'm yours... I thought as the smile faded from her face, replaced by surprise. A flicker of doubt crossed my mind but she simply touched my cheek and kissed me...

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Just a bit of writing i thought i'd share ;D