Absolute Personal Intervention.

#4 How adorable you can be.


It's time for me to
Stop.
Recover.
Cleanse.
Forget.
Renew.
Awaken.

I need to take control.
Right now its pathetic...
I need some structure and boundary,
This new is in my face,
Startling so,
And I don't know why?

I need to go back to my roots.
Which means;
More time with nature again.
More focus on school.
More music.
More caring.
More seeing things.


Less negative thoughts.
Less being counterproductive.
Less procrastination.
Less sleep deprivation. (more organised time)
Less nothingness.


Back to basics to try and find the person who is missing.
Right now I'm only a shadow,
And I think I've finally found the source of all this...

Dwelling.
On all the things.
I swore not to let get me down....
Dwelling,
After how I told you,
How I thought people should focus on the best things...

This created a desperation.
And in desperation I turned to you.
And I was selfish,
And all i wanted to do is talk to you,
But I never thought about it.
So I ended up failing.
And in my failures I didn't care
Because I was blinded
By this.

Understanding.
Give me a light?

I'm sorry...
I love you so much.
Today is where I draw the line for good.
And I know you won't believe me.
"It's just like every other time."
But I'm trying.
Please don't wear too thin,
I want this just as much as you do. I'm going to fix this right. now.